Tag Archives: relationship with God

The Purge

Catch my eye
Butterflies flapping
Fill the air with gravity
Mind slipping away
I am falling

Veins knotted
Gasping for air
This drug is poison to me
No point in trying
I am losing

Off my chest
Purge this wild thing
Let my heart be Your captive
My soul is wanting
I’m fighting on

Got to go
Out this old boat
Take a step to where You are
It’s Your voice calling
I’m moving on

Move my pen
Write them letters
Form words I dare not express
‘Cause I’m not staying
I’m pressing on

Hope reborn
Within my reach
Fix my eyes on You alone
Keep me from drowning
I’m dreaming on

18 August 2014

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In Love

No words can paint a picture
Of this cup brimming over
The sweetness that flows
Washing away fears
My woes
I am overcome

Oh that I be owned by You
No other mark would I wear
Even if shackled
I’m no prisoner
My cell
Your arms with no bounds

When the path is forgotten
And I am desperately lost
Fool I often am
Always wandering off
My bane
And You look over the pain

When doubts flood my senseless thoughts
And grief renders me broken
Cheerless my days grow
Promises all gone
My hope
Is Your relentless presence

Let me swim the depths of Your love
Experience unknown beauty
It keeps me wanting
Your riches untold
My quest
I shall be drowning

23 June 2014

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Jump

I long to fly
Where dreams come true
Somewhere close to You
And I am weightless
Not wanting

Hopes undying
Keep me alive
Pushing to a dive
Off cliffs unknown
Just daring

Fears can cripple
Even winners
Yet clear soft whispers
Fix me wings spread wide
Wrought through fire

Piercing through clouds
Once more dauntless
Love flowing endless
Life into my veins
I am free

29 October 2013

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Beautiful

I could not truly appreciate
The colours of your radiance
The light shining through
Piercing the darkness
A cloud that envelops my gaze

I have wanted to press on for long
Darts of hurt I got used to
The shackles pulling
Keeping me rooted
The spot that zapped my ebbing strength

I could not constantly fail trying
One can only reach so much
Before it gets numb
Becoming a fool
The part I did not wish to play

You would not let me endure much more
Those pierced hands I can now touch
They never withdrew
‘Twas I who dismissed
Sure help that had always been there

You raised me up from where I lay
Your presence breathed life in me
Suddenly I’m free
I can hear my heart
Strong and fast it beats once again

What I feared I would run away from
But then it hit me head on
Guess I have to fall
Feel the bruise and pain
To know what it’s like to be whole

I never knew love could be so real
A seed once sown in this soil
A grand idea
Fixture in my head
The depths I never dared explore

A rare flower now I am blooming
Out from the hole I have dug
You are here so near
I’m drawn to Your face
Nothing to behold but beauty

20 August 2013

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Morning

I’m afraid I’m slipping away
I lost my taste for pure
Chasing after food
That leaves me insatiable
Filling up but ever hungry
Collecting dew
When all I want is honey

I’ve forgotten what it is to love
This heart has stopped to care
Relying on shocks
Half-alive, only half-believing
Thinking ‘twas you
Though just a shadow fading

I lost my way under the stars
And I ask many times over
Where I have gone wrong
This I know
I replaced you with another

Relieved I did not hold the ropes
Otherwise it’d be undone
Steep hope I had climbed
Often loomed impossible
But you held my arms, said strongly
‘Yes, I got you’
Then I was on it steady

You found me, put me back on track
You wouldn’t leave me wandering

This tug-of-war’s far from over
It is always around
Spirit versus flesh –
Only the end can finish
At least I am not on my own
I know you’re here
Sharing with this scar unknown

You pierced my soul deep
I’m alive
And I long to love once again

6 June 2013
(23-24 May 2013, draft)

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Dusk

The sun sets
And the clouds gather
As if making way
For deep hues
To call it a day

Skies go dark
And then suddenly
Silhouettes appear
Showing their shapes
Everything seems clear

The sun sets
All noises are hushed
So your voice gets loud
It reached my heart
And I can’t be proud

Skies go dark
All about that’s hidden
Is shining brightly
No pretence
Only honesty

1 May 2013

This sunset photo was taken using my point-and-shoot camera at Atuayan Beach, Coron, Palawan.

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Placid

This water runs deep
Closer to that bend
Dare to stay at ease
Focused till the end

See the depth of the blue
Against the lush beyond
Where this heart longs to muse
Under the warmth of the sun

Smooth waves came flowing in
Then fears woke up inside
Suddenly madness within
Grabbed courage, pushed it aside

Spread my wings, lift me up
My soul is careless and weak
Let me ride the wind above
Find the bounty that I seek

 

26 March 2013

 

Inspired by the rarely seen wild ducks that we encountered while kayaking at Triboa Bay on the 25th of March, 2013

calmseas

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LOST

It’s plain to see where I have gone
Waded in streams that hid from the sun
Walked on paths where you bid me not come
So I wandered
Till I suffered

Quenched my thirst with unspoken dreams
Fed growing hunger on soggy greens
Filled this longing with what can be seen
So that I’d seem
Healthy but lean

Heard your call that I would ignore
Plodded on till it hurt to the core
Never would stop but I saw no more
And the load I bore
Weighed worse than before

Fool I was for not staying close to you
The map was with you and the compass too
Without a guide I did not have a clue
Only your words are true
They alone can lead through

2 November 2012

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Passion

Worn but not utterly spent
Scratched but not deeply wounded
Not giving in
No relenting

Struggling through yet halfway there
Plodding on yet right on track
Keeping on moving
Steadily pushing

Dreams of finishing well
Hopes of victories to share
Growing deeper
Getting bolder

Your words consume waking thoughts
Your life fuels every step
This soul impassioned
My heart abandoned

20 October 2012

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