Tag Archives: relationship with God


Pansin mo ba
Ang dibdib ko’y
May pagkaba
Na para bang
Mundo’y hindi na
Tuluyang iikot pa

Ang bawat kurot
Ay sariwa
Iniwang gusot
Ng pabulusok
Ng mga luhang
Sa iniwang sulok

Mayro’n bang nakikinig
Sa pagbagsak ay may hahawakang bisig
Ramdam mo ba ang pagpintig
Ng puso kong nahahapo na sa pagkabig

Sa aking lungga
Sa magulo
Na pagpapako
Ng mga bulong
Sa isip ko
Na nagkakanulo

‘Di ko mawari
Kung maaari
Mga pagkakamali
Ay maikubli
At ‘di na mabunyag
Na parang bahagharing
Lantad nilang masusuri

Ikaw ba’y dumirinig
Sa pagbagsak ko’y malakas na bisig
Batid mo ba na ang pagpintig
Ay huling lakas ng pag-asang kumakabig

Butas at kulang
Na mapuno
At magdiwang
Ang kaluluwang
Pawang nakalutang
Sa pagsusumikap
Na matangan
Wagas na kaligayahan

Sa alapaap
Kinang na matingkad
Ni sa hinagap
Aking maaapuhap
Nang walang pagsisikap
Ako ay kukupkupin
Iibsan ang paghihirap
Ng paghahabol sa pangarap

Ako ba ay makikinig
Hahawak lamang sa nakahanda Mong bisig
Idudulog ang pagpintig
Sa Iyo nang walang pag-atras at pagkabig

Ikaw ang kapahingahan ng aking diwa
Ikaw ang pag-asa na di ko makita
Sa hantad na pagsuway Ika’y di nanghihina
At sa paglimot ko’y parating may paghalina

Di nagbabago
Walang pagsuko
Ang pag-ibig Mo
Tuloy-tuloy lamang sa pagsamo

Ikaw ang makikinig
Ako’y tatakbo sa Iyong bisig
Sasabay itong pagpintig
At hahayo nang walang pagkabig

Ako ay hintayin
Sa tagpuan ako’y Iyong tanggapin

Poem for CCBC YAM Spark’s ‘Tagpuan’
25 March 2018


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Ugoy ng Agos

Isinasaisang-tabi ka
Puso’y inaalay sa iba
Na parang ito’y
Tuluyang inangkin na niya

Na hayaang pabayaan ka
Malango sa piling ng iba
Na parang bukas
Ay mabibigyang-kulay niya
Pag-asang nakatuwid sa ‘yo
Di kubli sa ibang anino

Di muling pansin
Tinig ng lumipas niyang mundo

Pagpitik ng bawat minuto
Higit sa hikbi at hangos ko
Walang paghumpay
Ang pag-agos ng pag-ibig mo

19 July 2016

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Unsketch this memory
Filling every bit of me
Unrelenting, unwilling
Maybe hooked perpetually

Does it ever end –
This madness long forsaken
Hooked, hidden and unwanted
Maybe truly forgotten

I look for Your figure
Lost in a sea of dark rays
Smiling, on me eyes fixing
And forgiven my wrong ways

19 July 2016

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The Purge

Catch my eye
Butterflies flapping
Fill the air with gravity
Mind slipping away
I am falling

Veins knotted
Gasping for air
This drug is poison to me
No point in trying
I am losing

Off my chest
Purge this wild thing
Let my heart be Your captive
My soul is wanting
I’m fighting on

Got to go
Out this old boat
Take a step to where You are
It’s Your voice calling
I’m moving on

Move my pen
Write them letters
Form words I dare not express
‘Cause I’m not staying
I’m pressing on

Hope reborn
Within my reach
Fix my eyes on You alone
Keep me from drowning
I’m dreaming on

18 August 2014

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In Love

No words can paint a picture
Of this cup brimming over
The sweetness that flows
Washing away fears
My woes
I am overcome

Oh that I be owned by You
No other mark would I wear
Even if shackled
I’m no prisoner
My cell
Your arms with no bounds

When the path is forgotten
And I am desperately lost
Fool I often am
Always wandering off
My bane
And You look over the pain

When doubts flood my senseless thoughts
And grief renders me broken
Cheerless my days grow
Promises all gone
My hope
Is Your relentless presence

Let me swim the depths of Your love
Experience unknown beauty
It keeps me wanting
Your riches untold
My quest
I shall be drowning

23 June 2014

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I long to fly
Where dreams come true
Somewhere close to You
And I am weightless
Not wanting

Hopes undying
Keep me alive
Pushing to a dive
Off cliffs unknown
Just daring

Fears can cripple
Even winners
Yet clear soft whispers
Fix me wings spread wide
Wrought through fire

Piercing through clouds
Once more dauntless
Love flowing endless
Life into my veins
I am free

29 October 2013

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I could not truly appreciate
The colours of your radiance
The light shining through
Piercing the darkness
A cloud that envelops my gaze

I have wanted to press on for long
Darts of hurt I got used to
The shackles pulling
Keeping me rooted
The spot that zapped my ebbing strength

I could not constantly fail trying
One can only reach so much
Before it gets numb
Becoming a fool
The part I did not wish to play

You would not let me endure much more
Those pierced hands I can now touch
They never withdrew
‘Twas I who dismissed
Sure help that had always been there

You raised me up from where I lay
Your presence breathed life in me
Suddenly I’m free
I can hear my heart
Strong and fast it beats once again

What I feared I would run away from
But then it hit me head on
Guess I have to fall
Feel the bruise and pain
To know what it’s like to be whole

I never knew love could be so real
A seed once sown in this soil
A grand idea
Fixture in my head
The depths I never dared explore

A rare flower now I am blooming
Out from the hole I have dug
You are here so near
I’m drawn to Your face
Nothing to behold but beauty

20 August 2013

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I’m afraid I’m slipping away
I lost my taste for pure
Chasing after food
That leaves me insatiable
Filling up but ever hungry
Collecting dew
When all I want is honey

I’ve forgotten what it is to love
This heart has stopped to care
Relying on shocks
Half-alive, only half-believing
Thinking ‘twas you
Though just a shadow fading

I lost my way under the stars
And I ask many times over
Where I have gone wrong
This I know
I replaced you with another

Relieved I did not hold the ropes
Otherwise it’d be undone
Steep hope I had climbed
Often loomed impossible
But you held my arms, said strongly
‘Yes, I got you’
Then I was on it steady

You found me, put me back on track
You wouldn’t leave me wandering

This tug-of-war’s far from over
It is always around
Spirit versus flesh –
Only the end can finish
At least I am not on my own
I know you’re here
Sharing with this scar unknown

You pierced my soul deep
I’m alive
And I long to love once again

6 June 2013
(23-24 May 2013, draft)

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The sun sets
And the clouds gather
As if making way
For deep hues
To call it a day

Skies go dark
And then suddenly
Silhouettes appear
Showing their shapes
Everything seems clear

The sun sets
All noises are hushed
So your voice gets loud
It reached my heart
And I can’t be proud

Skies go dark
All about that’s hidden
Is shining brightly
No pretence
Only honesty

1 May 2013

This sunset photo was taken using my point-and-shoot camera at Atuayan Beach, Coron, Palawan.

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